If You Only Knew

The Spine of Gnostic Insiderism

You lack the hidden knowledge.

“Trust us.”

Epistemic Domination by Secrets

The structure works like this: there are privileged knowers. They know, but you can’t. Not yet. Soon, perhaps. After you pay your dues. But it might just be better if you don’t. It’s enough that you know that they know. That keeps you safe. That keeps you close to the inside. It might be asymmetrical by design. But that’s not a bug. That’s the feature.

Those who don’t buy in? They are defective. They are not inside. They aren’t willing to believe what they don’t know. That makes them suspect.

Requests for proof are not only dismissed. They are harnessed against you. Submission to the frame is the key to learning. Resistance to the claim becomes proof of your own ignorance. Whether the topic is tone, trauma, gentleness, holiness, masculinity, parenting, or spirituality, does not matter. The verdict was already decided.

“If only you knew….” You are wrong the moment you don’t take their word for it.

Sleight of Mind

Knowing is never actually on offer. Sharing the secret is impossible. It would spoil the game. The promise itself is a functionary of control. The secret is not instruction. The secret is how to claim evidence while always withholding it, how to demand allegiance while ever deferring responsibility. Authority is grounded not in actual truth but in the withholding of the promised information.

Legitimacy by exclusion. If they let you in, then you’d stop paying the price of entry.

When you find yourself scrolling in silence, when your mind gets caught in one of those loops, when you feel like something is missing but can’t figure out what it is, this is a sign that you’ve already swallowed the bait. “If only… then….” is a machinery we’ve been trained to activate in the nervous system as a means of seeking belonging.

The danger is that this lands you in an everlasting courtroom. You are lacking. You are deficient. You are at least one insight away from accepting your own life.

You are waiting for permission to be who you are.

This is not humility. This is the aftermath of narrative domination. This is subjection to persona through the withholding of mutuality, the expectation of comprehension before delivery.

The Christian faith does not work this way. The Bible does not say, “If only you knew more, then you’d find peace.” It says, “You search the Scriptures, but it is they that testify to Me.” ⬅️ Click that Link for More of This ⬇️!

Always Learning

The Bible does not say, “If you knew more, you would be worthy.” It says: you are known. Jesus never says, “Figure it out and come to me.” He says, “Come to me.”

Justification precedes illumination. Identity precedes understanding. The Kingdom is proclaimed to all, not whispered to the literate. But Christianity has been long subjected to a knowledge-based righteousness test. Denominationalism vies for market share. Apologists argue the fine points. Righteousness, even justification by grace, is only reachable by announcement of the right equation.

That is why it feels like you can never repent enough, never explain enough, never grow enough, and, finally, never heal enough. The sermons keep disappointing because idealism does not inspire. The accusations keep dividing because theories do not regenerate. The bar keeps moving because the bar is the mechanism of power by “next time.”

Once you see this, something important shifts. When “not knowing” stops being evidence against you, life becomes redeemed ground again. Ignorance is not guilt. Boring is not unacceptable. Silence is not an accusation.

When the present moment feels threatening, that is the moment to purge the gnostic addiction of its fuel. “If you only knew” that there is no secret insight to chase, no inner ring to enter, no whispered speciality to unlock peace, then the panic can be what it is: a feeling.

The truth of Jesus Christ does not require your mastery. It grants His. It does not feel like victory. It proclaims His. It does not cover your exposure. It reveals His.

Continence is Enough

You are not wrong for not knowing. You are not late to the inside. You are shedding the inherited belief that what makes you safe is more. That belief is the greater ignorance. The lock. The spirit to test and dismiss.

This is not a technique. This is not “the secret knowledge that undoes the secret knowledge.” That, too, is residue of the lie. This is not an idea. This is a new creation. Another order entirely. A jurisdiction that does not need to understand before it can believe.

“I don’t have to know” is not a proposition you believe. It’s a place you stand. A release of the demand that meaning, safety, righteousness, or survival must be unlocked. It’s not about reading the right sentence. It’s about having the sentence dropped.

You are not obligated to solve, to decode or to arrive. You are unhooked. You are unleashed. The snare is broken and we have escaped.

“If only you knew”?

You don’t have to.